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2003-05-10T10:03:00.000-07:00

mann this is the POPest song i ever HEARD! haha like the ending, they have a guy talking a sentence to make it all DRAMATIC.. but i like the beat.. MOST OF IT and the chorus ;) hahahah but listen carefully, THEY CAN RHYME VERY WELL! ;)

2003-05-10T10:01:00.000-07:00

i'm testing this song too.. ahha thanks ate! haha i would put this song on my private blog (which explains why you dont see me updating) but my sister called it. its ok.. i can listen to it here !! :o) have a nice day

2003-04-09T12:49:00.000-07:00

i need to test this song ;D

2003-03-18T21:37:00.000-08:00

monday.. CCD MIDTERM.. TUESDAY, CONFIRMATION MIDTERM. OH MY GOSH.. this month is very RELIGIOUS FOR ME .. wow.. what a wake up call huh? anywho, HIM, is EHH. haha hm, i'm deciding whether or not i should like him. i'd write more right now, but then i have a math quiz to study for and a website i wanna check out. LATERR folks

2003-03-15T18:34:00.000-08:00

just the thought of retreat and the goodness and HIM ;D makes me so full of life. oh yehhhh -_-

2003-03-11T22:27:00.000-08:00

heyyy.. sorry i havent been updating this site.. just needed some time off.. yeeeeh.. so what did I give up for lent you say? oh yes.. RICE [i feel ya jaja ;D], hot cheetos, and chatting online :D. yeppp.. so about that break aye? thats exactly what i took on the BEST weekend ever! haha CONFIRMATION RETREAT 2003 :D ;D my goodness, what a weekend.. i'm so glad i got to share it with all those people.. wow.. haha its ok if i dint got to ASBball, this is way better.. sooo lets begin with the oh so wonderful journey..

friday got out of 2nd period and skipped the rest of school.. to go and pay respect to a beloved member of ST.MARY'S JOE TUMINTING...yeh, he's a heartfelt memory...so lots of crying and hugging went on there, ..his banner over me is love ;)..and then i got ready my trip to rancho del cielo.. for CONFIRMATION... ;D.. oh yess...my sister and i got there early at the parish center, we dint want to be late... and more and more people started to come.. everyone was all thinking "whatever" about this retreat yanno, hanging out with their own group of buddies, i was always roaming around.. yehhh im a roamer. :D.. the way we loaded the bus was that human chain thing.. some leaders were making fun of how some people brought a bniggg arse back for only a weekend...ANYWAY.. we were waiting on the last three people ;D, and then we rode in a "low budget" bus... the way there was funnny, and silent at times.. we did the tissue tearing thing.. that's how things got started..and then we unloaded at the cite the way we did load.. it was very secluded, very pretty, and not all that cold as i was expecting..hmm, we quickly settled in our cabin.. thank goodness i dint go sleep at the "haunted" cabin.. hm.. ;/..but my sister did :D yeeeh we were separated.. then we all met up at a far away amphitheater where we got the basics, blehh the rules, NO PDA.. haha THAT WAS BROKEN hahaha..and this memorable ice breakers.. where we had to have a gesture followed by our names and THEN the other people and THEIR gestures that was before you.. hahahaha MARK and his LIP.. William and his BOOOGER picking, JOCKER, DENARD, ADRIAN, and ANDRE and their little shoulder shakes.. hahahaha my gulay that was funny, was just sniffling my nose, but now that i think of it, i should have just layed on the table. haha..then we got into our cell phone groups because the theme was "can you hear me now?"..AT&T. hahah the others were verizon, t mobile, and cingular. yepp.. JAYPEE was my leader {yay} ..and the other leaders were ROXANNE, ERIC, AND JOCKER. blehh blehh and then the hike IN THE DARK.. i dint bring a flashlight >_<, but yeeeh, while going up to the cross at the top of the hill/mountain, we did the stations of the cross.. and the stars DANNNG, a good friend of mine, andrew, would love to sit out all night and look at them.. i saw a SHOOTING STAR!! yess. -__-.. we reached the top, and the cross was huge!..as did our little meditation with our meditation music, i dint want to cry, so i held it and look at the stars instead.. yeeeh "i will be there"..lovely song.. yeep. uh, then we hiked back down, i dropped my medicated chap*stick, jocker picked it up, thank goodness.. haha it was ok for him to use it too. hahaha..then a snack.. and then sleep sleep.. my buddies at 14A: marjee [my buddy and person who slept on the top bunk ;D], jaja [dang we connected], roxanne [ a grreat leader yup yup], maechelle [kookooberra ;D], elaine [and her oompa loompa], and cynthia and marilen ;D.. oh yess a grreat place.. and thennn...

saturday we woke up at 6 to meet at the flagpole at 7...our mornin' stretch wa "rise and shine and sing out His glory, glory" haha funny exercise..and then a game "smile is you love me".. hahaha OMAR and AIDE.. MY GOOOOODNESSSS LAUGHs and LAUGHs.. HAHAHHAA.. good stuff ^_^.. and then a yummy breakfast ;D mmmmm..and then we were off to the "talks" with great conversations.. WOW, deep conversations that really opend my heart and mind.. i love that mann some people i can talk to :D i'm glad for that!..we did this activity where in a volleyball court, we had to preform different tasks BLINDFOLDED.. i had to jump consistantly in three hula hooops and then, my AT&T lost track of time this one time and were like 5 minutes late for one of our talks.. :X yikes.. but that's because we were practicing our SKIT. i made a bracelet for my secret buddy STEPHANIE ;D.. and some decopods along with a pillow! i dint get to finish because i poked myself haha INJURED WHILE SEWING. ;D...hmm, and then WHOAAAA A YUMMY ARSE LUNCH.. mmmmmmmm mmmmmmmm.. hahaha and then..some kodak moments... uhh, we had confession and mass, and Father Dennis went up for the mass, haha he's COOOL.. my walking buddy talking buddy MARJEE, haha thanks for the talk.. and then dinner and an activity with telephones :D. and a CRYING MOMENTS with PALANKAS.. letters written about feelings and stuff.. I DINT GET A CANDLE FROM JOCKER :(. maybe he ran out, but the candy was greeat...uhh, then after puffy eyes from crying, SKIT TIME. i made a last minute rhyme.. oh yessss "retreat was fun, we ate hot dogs on a bun, the hike was great, we stayed up late, you guys know we've been the best we can be, God gave us the gift, (who we be??) AT&T!!!!".. oh yesssss.. hahahhaahhaa OUR SKIT WAS COMEDY.. we did the gestures and the smile if you love me and the rise and shine one.. haha FUNNY.. i was pretending to be AJ/JOCKER hahahaha ouch.. i over did it,, INTENTIONALLY! GOSH. haha yeeeh..since we couldnt make a campfire (darn), we stayed in the eating place dining hall thing and Jon told us some ghost stories mann, he freaked me out a little with shadows and all that.. and lots of PDAs was going around there.. uh huh.. hm..by the time we was done, haha it was like 3 in the morning!! and everyone was too sleepy to go on the morning hike.. mann its ok.. and then..

SUNDAY was sad, because it was the last of it...grrerat breakfast.. mmmm.. and a discussion with the whole group.. a bird came in out chapel, we all believed it was JOE, at least i thought it was..and then we loaded the bus, and signed our journals :D..and then went back to the Parish Hall, and preformed out SKITS AGAIN, but to our parents.. that was GREAT.. THE BEST MANN>> THE BESSSSSSSST.

2003-03-02T16:05:00.000-08:00

so its march now. hahahaha whats been up lately? umm. RAIN.. cloudy days..talking to old and new friends.. yeeeep. oh yes, my birthday past, it was on the 19th.. it was cool. haha hm... i made seminar. yay ;D.. asb ball is coming up.. also my confirmation retreat.. therefore, im not going to the dance.. what im giving up for lent: hot cheetos, rice, and chatting online..:D..a very veryy good person, died on wednesday, feb. 26, 2003. joseph tuminting. i know he's in heaven for sure.. :).. what else.. i wann grow, and i want filipino guys to grow. yeeh. life is too short. play naked.

2003-02-15T22:32:00.000-08:00

so a few more days till my birthday. ;-) not errone knows, and i like to keep it that way. soo, my valentines day ayee? i GUESS is SUCKED.. i found out my antijamielou sn worked oh yess -__-.. i got in too deep with a conversation i had with andrew, and i think he got it all wrong. ehh, what can i do? obivously, when i tell him one thing, he sticks to it. ehh. so hm, that kinda ruined MY day and part today.. siene was sweet enough to ask me be his valentine for the final hour and 30 minutes of feb14.. haha it has no freakin meaning now.. i dont mind.. but the cards are sure sweeet. haha my sister got like two? hahaha lucky her. hm.. what else? things has just been ever so depressing, and i think no on understands because they are so used to me as the "nonsad" girl ehh. but i dont mind.. its all in their head, and maybe its in mine too. my problem is probably my confidence, and lack of control.. haha people dont know that ayee? so today i read yet another book by nicholas sparks, making it COMPLETE as to all the books he wrote, I READ oh yess.. -___- its called "a bend in the road".. and his style was different. hm yess. what else? i'm glad i have some people that are comforting me and helping me become happier. you know who you are ;-) thanks

2003-02-02T18:37:00.000-08:00

hm, i wonder who is still reading this.. haha screw it then. anywho, after church (which i think we need more better speaking preists :X) we dropped off our lola and went to ralphs to look at cards and yehhh, valentines day is coming up, big whoop. anywho, we went on to heidi's party.. we were the second guests there, and once i got in, heidi's mom asked who was older: me or my OLDER sister. ;D haha mann, that always happen. so anyway, i spent most of my "shy" time looking and complimenting on their house, with these picture-covered walls , it was very cool to see hawai'ian pictures.. haha makes me soo "err" to not live there in hawaii yet. so most guests arrive and by then, we got kinda fed up with waiting for the others, and then we moved along to the family room, or living room, which ever room that's connected to the kitchen..blehh.. sang some karaoke, not me yet tho, i was still shy; after all, it was my sister's friends..but already lots of laughs past us by. more and more people came, whoo hoo, queso "ashley-dante" came, started out with his guitar ;P haha with this cool ass tuner. and then keshia and daniela and cindy was there too and also joseph. we went along and watched "wayne's world" ;P hahaha i watched that show many times, and until now did i get their JOKES. hahaha ok, so yeh, watching tv, and then i ate some those cheap strawberry candies which i absolutely love by the way.. i taught heidi and keshia how to peel off the yellow part of the lemonhead.. yep yep.. the soft part..i realized that all the girls were sitting on the ground, and the guys were sitting in the comfy couch/bed thing.. haha silly huh? after that, it was dark, and then mark and his friend larry came, after all the "argument" heidi and him had. haha..more and more karaoke went.. highlight: the MULTI-COLORED HATS and PJ with DANTE SINGING BARBIE GIRL ;D gotta love it!!..then people were starting to leave and then we ate cheese cake to top of our stay at the party.. it was fun..then when my mom picked us up, we saw mark driving.. and then when he drove past by us, we rolled our window down and said "turn on your lights" haha that was funny, and then what was a little scary to me was that they followed us home. i dint feel comfortable :\ haha ok then, thats all i guess.

2003-02-01T16:15:00.000-08:00

hm, not much going on, just feel like people dislike me, i always feel like that, but now, screw what people are saying..had a boring weekend, but i did discover more info that i just found out.. hahaha, my mind studies many things, and i tend to create a hobby,.. so anyways, i see a new perspective now, and i kinda like it.. haha its weird, he wants love, and i'm stupid, but i never noticed it until i started picking up tid bits of phrases, and just like that. it just hit me.
on another note, things are ok, i hope i get GREAT grades that i'm hoping for, and i also hope to be more happy, if i'm not as happy as i should be already

so..valentines day aye? suree.. i'm getting ready to wear all black yup yup.

2003-01-24T19:41:00.000-08:00

finals are finally over.. i'm so happy.. i think things turned out well.. i'm surprised by that too.. i've been stressing.. but things go good with God's with you. :D so i've been american idol and star search. haha funny funny stuff.. i wouldnt wanna do that, but i commend all them people for being brave unlike me. :D so i've been thinking a lot, once again.. nothing much happening but just THINKING. point. blank. bleh. hmm..i hope i do well on my tests.. man oh man, i dont wanna make me have Bs now.. errg i so hope not ok i guess thats all i wanna say.. oh yeh other stuff but for right now, this section rii here is "school" related

ok, this is the girlygirl inside of me talking now..it kinda sucks to say stuff like that, but eh screw this. so i'm thinking many things...haha and me crushing on guys just haunt me over and over.. i'm kidna glad that i'm putting crushes aside riight there, like i've been restraining myself from talking to a very good friend of mine that lives ALL THE WAY UP THERE..haha and then the people i used to think about quite often, uhhhh weeeener dog, uhh he's nothing much now.. and then my summer "fling" haha IENNO dude, its like he wants me to continue liking him, but lately, i've been showing lesser and lesssss emotions..which is good cuz i wanna concentrate on other things, and i dont wanna complicate my life more, but now i'm feeling like i need that one guy friend who i can talk to and take that stress, just talking and stuuuufffffff, so why am i doing this again? I DON FREAKING KNOW.. haha its kinda lucky for my sister who has this "thing" with this guy since the beginning of high school. so too damn lucky.. haha her key: TO NOT LOOK FOR SOMEONE hahahaahah and thats what i'm doing.. just chillen' and having funnnn, but stupid crushes linger inside. shit shit shit.

i observe other people during school, how easy they can manage their life, with a relationship, kickin it with friends and GET FREAKING GOOD GRADES all at once.. dang how luckky are they. blehhhh

2003-01-20T17:39:00.000-08:00

oh help me GOD. PLEASE LET ME DO REALLY WELL ON MY TESTS DURING THE FINALS.. PLEASE LET ME UNDERSTAND WHAT I NEED TO KNOW..PLEASE HELP ME COPE WITH MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY PLEASE LET ME BE FOCUSED AND ON TASK PLEASE LET MY PROJECTS HAVE As AND LET MY BE SUCCESSFUL.. PLEASE THIS IS MY PUBLIC PRAYER.. HOPE TO HAVE A PHENOMINAL ANSWER FROM YOU. THANK YOU.. AMEN.

i must not think of him... i must not think of him.. i must not think of him.. because he does not think of me.

2003-01-20T11:26:00.000-08:00

physics... is what i must do.. ohhhh nooooo =\

2003-01-17T16:10:00.000-08:00

JANURAY 16- OH MY HAPPY HAPPY LORD.. LUNCH BABY! whooohooo.. haha this week overall.. ALRIGHT. i'm having PRE-FINAL nervousness.. i hope i do well.. i'm scared mostly of my PHYSICS and HON. GEOMETRY! ehh. oh well.. i pray to GOD he'll help me :D.. hm.. i dint take a picture with jerka, artemus, and indian man. ;D haha hmm.. what else to say? uhh.. i had an aquaintance with andrew.. at least i dont feel as nervous like last time.. whoooweee haha ;D well, my funny times are afterschool. yep. well, i need some candy... i want to meet more people.. haha ;D.. weeeener dog.. 3 HOURS BABY! whoooooooopieee.

2003-01-13T22:15:00.000-08:00

gnite folks.. make that TWO HOURS yesssss PLUS a "walk home" if ya know what i mean. hahaha -_- weeeeener doggg

2003-01-11T16:15:00.000-08:00

its hard when you have something to say, but you kinda want it to be kept inside.. but dengg. this blogger just wanna make me wanna say something.. maybe i shoulda just made this a private blogg

2003-01-10T17:14:00.000-08:00

fun times today.. hmm. started THIS MORNING when my sister and i had this sister-sister moment.. haha cant get enough of that.. haha YOU TRAITOR! haha just kidding.. haha and then, i dint go with my sister's friends as usual because we had pep rally.. we were THIS CLOSE __ into winning.. but i dint stand up. =\ ehhh ok .. hm, i dont understand why andrew called my a hypocrite.. i have to get some insight to that little gesture. i am very thankful for the toe socks that stefanie gave me.. she's such a great friend ^__^.. hm, oh my goodness, had some laughs..right now, i'm thinking.. what homework do i have now?? uhh.. READ..BOOK TALK..SPANISH?..ASB BINDER?..PHYSICS: REMEMBER THE TITANS..MATH HOMEWORK. ok that's a lot. i should get started... dang, i could have made a record too.. i got "boinked" in the head.. BAMM.. the "feeling" is barely there.. it's kinda funny too. because when i think of it WOW..only good thoughts.. but then, afterschool, i realized that "things" can't be true. blah. stupid ninth grader i am.. =\

2003-01-09T18:00:00.000-08:00

STUPID AOL disconnected me with my COOOL ASSS ENTRY.. now i have to MAKE THIS OVER. err. ok.. i have to hurry now.. because i have homework. dangit. ok.. hm, overall: day was ok. got my first wedgie at PE.. you're supposed to GRAB THE FLAG in FLAGfootball, NOT MY SHORTS> hahah FUNNY stuff. :D haha uhh.. what else.ASB was OK.. too much stuff to think about.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONICA! ^__^ umm..lunch was funny funny FUNNY ._. ehh good times, though i should really stick to 20o6! haha but again.. i dont feel as wanted. and maybe i'm not either with my sister's friends.. EHHH CONFUSION.. but a good lunch it was.. good times.. yessss TOTAL for the "weener dog" appearance.. ONE HOUR AND THIRTY MINUTES>>> YESSSSSS =)

2003-01-08T17:20:00.000-08:00

so..this shower was the shit man.. hahaha so fresh and so clean clean.. =) haha.. hmm.. nothing much... yet a wonderful lunch time.. i think i shuold be hanging with my 9th grade peers.. i want to. but i dont feel wanted over there.. that sucks.. sometimes i feel as if because i'm in ASB.. they THINK that i'm better than themm.. BUT I CERTAINLY AM NOT! ehh.. i hate assumptions.. GOD will help =) ok homework time. a GRIPP. darn. school. ehh some people make it worth it. SOME. haha laterr

2003-01-07T16:08:00.000-08:00

SO I TRIED to fix this tagging shiiiz. geewizz, i'm no PROFESIONAL like my friend cyrene.. by the way, check her spot out.. MISS PROFESSIONAL'S site uh huh.. haha.. my day.. was ok.. i HAD to wear a skirt. in the wind shoot.. all flying and shiiz.. my goodnesss. i had to wear it because ASB has FORMAL BUSINESS meetings every first tuesday of the month so yeh.. hmm...and those PAYLESS SHOES SUCK mann. they just do. i was so glad i brought my adidas.. otherwise, i woulda been on a wheelchair. =P haha hm.. PE SUCKED. we dint play football, instead, we stayed in the gym, and i was alone. but i dont mind. haha.. hm.. romeo still has my physics book.. i FINALLY wore my EAR WARMER.. and IT GOT DIRRRTY. haha hmm.. oh yeh, my outfit was ALL FREGGIN GRAY BY THE WAY.. HOW LOVELY. =) ..haha last night i was filling out this sicc survey.. hahaha you wanna fill it out? tagg up to your left. MY left i mean.. whatever.. --->> this way. haha after school, i was making a fool out of myself, just because. haha hmm, that jayr picture was lookin bomedy i tell ya. haha oh yeh, AND LUNCH.. aahhhh LUNCH. ^_^ sicc lunch.. made me feel like i was part of something..other STUFF too, but i dont want to make it seem like i'm yanno. TOO MUCH.. haha yesssss -_- i'm supposed to make an entry ALL ABOUT BRYAN.. haha hm. nice hair cut. i like that one picture in your wallet.. uhh... you should read the survey i filled out that jayr answered too.. uhh, GANGSTA! hahaha.. uhh.. hmm, what else? shoot, i lost. ok what else.. im not sure if i have homework.. ok.. truthfully, here's the thing.. besides school and God and all that on my mind.. like 45% of whats making me confused are GUYS.. uh huh.. weird.. but true.. that's crazy.. i have some situations with SOME people that I WOULD LIKE TO KEEP THEIR NAMES PRIVATE.. but danng... too much.. =| hahaha.. i need a talk with 3 people.. i heard this one quote that really SUCKS because it makes you HAVE TO DO IT.. but YOU DONT WANT TO.. :"if you like someone, tell him/her..you'll never know when it's your or his/her last day.. so live it up than keeping it.. you'll never know what he's/she's feeling for you.." SHIT man. SUCKS HUH? BUT WHAT IF YOU DON"T HAVE THE BALLS TO SAY THAT HUH?? shoot. YAY.. ok then.. i should go and do other stuff. maybe sleep or what ever... hmm "or whatnot".. hahaha.. mann, i need to talk to YOU.. if YOU somehow managed to get a hold of this shit and READ this.. mann... oh mannnn..POEM TIME! Eightwhy can guys get away with many things? birds shit on people, and they have wings.

2003-01-06T17:44:00.000-08:00

fogging message blogs..

2003-01-06T17:19:00.000-08:00

<>MY GOOOODNESSS. haha i'm soo not used to writing a shitload.. i need to get started now. so anyways.. MY FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL IN 20o3!! ERRR. today started off in a very comedic way.. haha I BRUSHED IN SQUARES!!! SCREW THAT BRUSHING IN SOFT CIRCLES!!! >_< ANYWAYS. more "interesting" stuff.. the COOOLeST BESTEST FRIEND EMMA ever so kindly gave me a belated gift for christmas and it was a REALLY tough to carry. haha yess, i need muscles. but what can you say? i'm ONLY JAMIELOU. anywho. there was first, second, third, ASB whoop, 5th and sixth period. haha during lunch it was good to see kyoto-san.. the REAL face of him *ahem ahem BLIND CHARMINE* =Þ he touched my birthmark.. funny stuff. AND THENN, i so wanted to play guitar because my brother randolf has been teaching me lately.. I KNOW PARTS OF 3 SONGS! shiiit. oh yeh, i got a crown. haha funny. mann, yanno, i dint get a grip of homework for vacation, thank GOD. but yeh.. anywho, i need to stop cussing. it's bad. ok. CARP. not CRAP..CARP. confused ya aye? haha. sorry, little things make me laugh. not little "things".. haha but that's another story.. hahaha, at church i saw my classmate from asb, and also the people i went with at the cooolest bonfire ever.. ahh memories.. mann, we need a bonfire again.. haha right now i'm getting high off that VICTORIA SECRET LOTION "pear glace`" ooooh @_@. haha ok.. BACK TO MY STORY. it seems i talk a lot about guys on this shit..well SORRY IF YOU ALREADY GOT THIS FAR. moving along, to my pushy self.. don't worry, i'm not like this a lot.. that's one good thing about blogs.. you say what you WANT TO SAY without any boundaries.. =) you guys should consider writing.. i'm telling ya'.. writing to GOD with letters, in journals, good stuff my people, good stuff. oh yeh, i was totally embarrassed during spanish today.. a lot of scary things happend to me too, and it sucks that i have no one to talk to.. tho, i solved a little from my parents.. haha saw my cousin again.. she's different, and i dont like how she acts.. shoot. she needs some Jesus in her! to make you feel weird, I HAVE STRAWBERRIES AND CREAM SHAMPOO AND CONDITIONER. haha i think i mentioned it. haha hm, good to see friends today.. but ehh, no one changed.. my eyes were somehow stalking my friend NOW, who i used to like haha.. math was fun. wait no. it was regular. i'm wearing this old navy ear warmer.. it's the best i'm telling ya.. beanies are great too.. tho i only have one, and i'm late in this so called "fad". =P haha what can i say? i'm ONLY JAMIELOU. =( haha i broke angeline's resolution. ok. she has a cell phone. i want one too.! we also toured this coooool toy my dad has. i need to go to the movies.. invite me! :D. i dont know what to say reallly..._. honestly, i'm just feeling siick right now. i don't know. i'm so confused. just like i always am.. i see people's blogs with their lives all perfect.. but dang.. i'm not even close.. mann i should go to hawaii.. ::SIGH:: OK. i think guys shouldn't be on my mind.. i think, as i said before the best relationship i can be is with a guy that's not a "boyfriend".. more than friends, less than a boyfriend.. truly the best." shooot. young kids out there. WHOA.. crushes are fine, but dont get caught up into that boyfriend/girlfriend mess. i'm serious.. patience mann.. hahaha enough about relationships.. CANDY.. must.... get... candy.. hahah mann, i really need to go out. i made a poem! watch: THE CAT. i like to fly all day and night THANK YOU. ^____^ haha i'm not all that great, but then again, i'm ONLY JAMIELOU. =\

2003-01-04T18:58:00.000-08:00

so here i am, i finished my 517 page book! =) ahaha not one of the bestest books EVER, but it's ok..i'm talking to my good ass friend chris. =D hm.. mann, my back hurts.. hmm... ok. need to do some LAST MINUTE PHYSICS STUFF>. i'm confused about physicssss! errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr =(

2003-01-03T13:22:00.000-08:00

<< heh heh heh -_- left you hanging? haha LOL. sorry about that.. so anyway.. whoooweee drove in our car.. costco.. bad memories.. eww. >_< man o man. GOD PROTECT AND GUIDE MY IN THIS SCREWED UP WORLD. i need a laugh, where's andrew m. when you need him?haha SUCH A FLIRT HE IS!ThoreDec [9:50 PM]: if u held 11 roses and lookied in the miror, you would se 12 of the most beautiful things in the world.
ThoreDec [9:50 PM]: see LOL. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah ok. i feel ok.

2003-01-02T17:23:00.001-08:00

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2003-01-02T17:23:00.000-08:00

two days with NO internet? SCARYYY as heckkks. fa sho! heh -_- i'm not as GHeTTo so don't worry your little ass off ok? haha so anywho.. i got this beanie.. a great one..one problem-it has ANGEL on it.. MANN another "americanized" beanie. i wanted to be plain.. yanno, cuz that's just me.. but THENNN an ANGEL beanie. whats next? PRINCESS SHEETS? oh heckkks to no. -..- LO.. FILIPINO STYLEEEE BAAAABY. for. sure! "they won't understand you! *giggles*"-CHARMINE. "i know."- JAMIELOU. boo. yes. ok, my sister has to use the coMMMputer. but my two days... uhh, nickels and quarters intead of original pennies on the floor.. NO HOMEWORK.. i ate and ate.. no calls or internet.. TV ...dint go out. NOT on house arrest.. EAT somemore.. hm..yep that's it... mann, i wish i cant alk to him.. i mean, i know i'm boring.. ubt something FUN always comes out of me talking to people.. =P haha shoot. but still.. DENGIT. haha this year, when i used to like this boy andrew, i just liked his comedic side. hahaSHOOOT. that's all.. oh yeh, and the fact that he listens, and shit. oh yeh. anyways. someone else now. by the name of.. dun dun dunnnnnn WAIT! i'm not supposed to like anyone this year.. =P so my crush is.. DUN DUN DUNNNN. wait!

2002-12-31T20:18:00.000-08:00

ok so today started with the family tradition of "end of the year" cleaning.. DENGG.. a grip of old stuff from ofarrellllll haha my 4+ projects =P haha well.. yeh.. and then i went to the sweetwater theatre.i saw miss vice president for sseniors ANDRELLA working there. it was cool! i liked her hair.. she always have nice hair..never been there before.. with my sister's friends..so it was a total of FIVE people.. me, my sister, pj, el, and daniela. ..we watched drumline.. it was a good movie.. though i wanted to see HOT CHICK. haha but drumline was a good movie tho..all the elements of every movie. after that we ate at carls jr.. haha PJ and HIS KIDS MEAL! haha many laughs there at CARL'S JR. then we walked into staples.. i got a few things.. and then walked back to the theatres to get picked up.. haha deng.. it showed how much i really need a cell phone... parents these days.. yeh.. took a shower.. spread them coins on the floor.. you filipinos know what i'm talkin' about ! ;-) haha hm..mann my shampoo ROCKS! with the smell of strawberrries and cream.. Mmmm -_-soooo good. [the smell of course.].. now i'm watching DUMB AND DUMBER.. LOL sicc movie. mann i like Pj's cell phone. hahaha SING FOR US! haha ok then.. happy EARLY new years, even tho the REAL new years is at 6:00 in the morning because you know how there's a leap year every four years? then that means that one year is 365 1/4 days.. yepp.. I'M SO DAMN SMART FOR THIS SHIT. haha JUST KIDDINg. mann, now you think i'm conceited. people these days. haha =P ok thennn.. 20o3, get ready for THIS GIRL.

2002-12-30T21:48:00.000-08:00

i need to start on telling you all about how my day went.

2002-12-30T20:28:00.000-08:00

i think..i know.. i shouldnt be sorry for myself.. live life to the fullest. haha but sometimes these things just come up riight? it wouldnt be normal if i dint think of things like that.. it's ok.. imma let GOD help me. ^_^ riiight?

2002-12-30T20:21:00.000-08:00

=) YEPP

2002-12-30T20:11:00.000-08:00

i'm getting frusturated.. maybe i've been feeling like this all the damn time, but until now i can put these into words. i'm not the anti-boy kind of girl.. i resented them for a bit because of the many things i DISLIKE about them.. or THEM in general. and it's not like i'm very experienced.. lately i've been thinking.. that i'm ONLY gonna be a friend to the guy i like. that sucks.. i mean, i'm glad that friends is what we have.. but we could have more. i'm not the most pretty girl, heckkss no..i dont like to talk about myself.. putting myself up makes me feel conceited. i wish a guy would understand..its hard to find a guy like that.. wait i take that back. i did find him. BUT.. a big mutha freggin BUTTTTTT, he doesnt feel the same way. sad huh? THAT ALWAYS HAPPENS TO ME.and this is not all about GUYS HERE.. this is just what's on my mind. so shut up if you think i'm a stupid girly-girl. ANYWAYS. iono. stupid feelings i've been having. and this is vacation! i've been helping my friends with their situations. and i'm grateful that i can help.. but errr my problems are complicated. dang.. it's always like this. tooo much.. and oh yeh, i'm not saying I WANT a boyfriend, i'm just saying. yeh.. haha it would be cool to have a friend that's a guy that's more than firends, and less than a boyfriend. STUPID TEENAGE DAYS.. err. this really sucks.. mann. i'm so confused.. last year, things were great, and then i kept holding on, to the same level, and me and him are friends now, which is good. then the summer I'M SO STUPID cuz it lasted until the beginning months of school until the STUPIDLY FINALLY realized that it was just infatuation. damn feelings.. and NOW.. its funny how i try to convince myself all these fictions that JUST HAVE TO BE reality. but dang, it's so hard to keep these feelings inside. i thought i can but SHIT NO. hahaha mann i'm really a mess. i'm not looking for a boyfriend to be with during my high school days.. it's not like i'm really ready for one.. a BIG ASS responsibility for me and my boyfriend.. haha i dont think there's anyone [a guy] that knows how willing i can be.. whoa.. that info was a lil scary. haha moving along... goodness.. MUST...get.....straight..A's.. ok enough about SCHOOL. ahhh guys. oh yeh! is it just me or do other people HATE PEANUT BUTTER AND JELLY?? ok..what else? LOL i'm so afraid to put names here.. it's not like im gonna talk smack.. but THIS IS MY JOURNAL!! err. oh yeh, i'm jamielou. later.